Neither here nor there

I miss perth rather badly

place yes people, frens all that, but most of all, i miss the freedom. I miss being free to do whatever I want, whenever I want, be it myself or whoever I want to do it with.
Back in Singapore, for the past few times, its alrite, cos its transient, I come back, at most a few months, and then i go back to Perth again. At the time, this transient state of cos wasn't ideal as well because you're never really here nor there. Just as u settle into a routine, you have to uproot urself again, and it gets tiring after a while.
This time though, I'm back for good. And i've missed Singapore, thats for sure. But its stifling. everything seems to be coming together and I don't see whats next. Its a feeling of being trapped, of not being able to breathe, of asking myself: 'is this what there is to life?' and not liking the answer that I give to myself.
I don't know what I need or even want, but i know this isn't it, but then again, its what I have to live with, this life. We make the best of what we have don't we.

So why do I keep thinking about Perth