was back in Singapore for a couple of days, almost a week actually. Came back last night, being monday night. went back for my uncle's funeral. Got a call last Tuesday telling me that he passed away. He found out that he had a couple of blocked arteries a few months ago, in November i think, when i went back for the Summer holidays. Went to hospital, scan, stuff like that, supposed to have an op to correct it, angioplasty or something to that effect if i remember correctly, don't quite know. Well anyway, they weren't able to do the procedure because of some stuff, can't rem, think maybe related to his blood pressure? So gave him some medicine, but didn't really work, then as time went by some complications occurred, kidneys couldn't work properly..wanted him to go on dialysis but he refused cos he didn't want to do it for the rest of his life...but got worse so he went on it i think,
so anyway, got weaker and weaker, was a strain on my aunt as well cos of the worry and stress and tiredness involved in taking care of him and working as well. She gave notice and was planning to quit her job in June so that she could take care of my uncle.
back to last tue, got an sms in the morning from my Mom while i was sleeping saying that Uncle George had a heart attack and was in NUH, but I wasn't sure how serious it was and neither was she. Went back to sleep, got a call about 12 or so telling me that he passed away, so i called Qantas, managed to get a 325 flight out in the aftnoon...got back...spent next couple of days at the wake, funeral on Sat, then on Sun we got a boat to go out to sea to scatter his ashes cos thats what he wanted.
before i left for Perth at the end of Feb, me and my parents had dinner with my Uncle and Aunt, me being the favourite nephew and all, this was the day before i left, and as i dropped him off, told him i'll see him in a few months. but well obviously not.
i don't really know what i wanted to get down in this post, my uncle was someone that, all u had to do when u met him was say hello, get him a drink, an ashtray, and then just sit down and enjoy all the stories that he'll tell u and the rants that he had against whoever
but anwiae
when someone dies, pple say, oh he had a good life, but so what if he did, no matter how good or bad a person lived his life, at the end of the day, hes not around anymore, and all we're left with are memories and images of the person and events that remain in our mind. give it a few years, and these memories become a footnote in our minds, i guess what i'm trying to say that pictures and memories will never replace the loss that we feel when a loved one has passed.
I know that its been very hard on my aunt and my cousin, especially so for my aunt cos my cousin's married and my aunt will now have to stay alone. I don't know how she'll be able to deal with her grief and sadness in a place where everything are memories of the one that she loved.
Anyway, i can't talk about all that i feel, cos i just can't, so this is the only means that I'm able to do so, so I just want to say a prayer for everyone that has lost a loved one, i'll always be thinking about my Grandaunty, my Grandad, whom i still think about alot, my Godfather, whom over the course of a few months i saw transformed from a healthy man into one stricken by cancer, and my Uncle George
May Eternal rest be granted unto them, and let perpetual light shine upon them. May they rest in peace, and may all the souls of the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace.
Amen
Psalm 23, 1-4
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me besides quiet waters, he restores my soul
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
On a side note, Reign Over Me is a rather good show. Plot wise it feels a little off, but the performances are very good. Adam Sandler is someone that shuts out the world after losing his family in 9/11, and theres a scene in it thats very powerful, when Adam Sandler talks to his in-laws for the first time since the death of his family
A.S: I don't need to talk about it, or look at pictures. cos the truth is, alot of times I see her, on the street. I walk down the street I see her in someone else's face, clearer than any of the pictures you carry with you. I get that ur in pain, but you've got each other. You've got each other, and I'm the one that whose gotta see her and the girls all the time, everywhere I go. I even see the dog. Thats how fucked up I still am. I look at a German Shepherd I see our Goddamned poodle.
