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disappointed wouldn't remotely convey what i feel
i'm sitting down looking at the fucking hotel bill and wtf lar
ah well

hmmm

yeahh i bought risk..finally..
everyone seems to be clubbin tonite...thanks to everyone who asked but nahh don't feel like drinking (who woulda thought this day wld come)..
saw this really old aunty at marina square foodcourt today..she was clearing dishes and stuff...has to be at least i dunno she looks 80....damn sad lar i really felt bad..been at the back of my mind till now...thats the thing bout s'pore...no such thing as proper welfare...even to the pple that really need it

feeling christmassy?

A very Merry Christmas to one and all, hope everyone had a nice time, and stayed away from the madness that is town

sad anniversary eh.. wats the final death count? 300,000? more? remember Stalin and his 'One death is a tragedy, a million deaths is but a statistic"...somehow it just reminds me of this....and its quite irritaing when i watch BBC or CNN, how they seem to focus exclusively on Thailand and esp Phuket in their Tsunami rememberance specials or watever...i'm not trivialising the deaths there or watever but comeon lar compare it wif Indonesia or India...they're jus focusing there cos so many bluddy ang mohs go there for holidays...doesn't seem fair to me

got abit irritated wif the 131 bus driver jus now on the way home...boarded the bus at united square...when i sat down..the bus driver din move off but turned ard and was lookin at me, motioning me to go forward...i was like me? erm ok..so i went forward and he told me in chinese to scan my card...then i told him but i scaned already...aniwae i scaned and it said ENTRY OK...then he not happy asked me to scan the other reader...and it said the same thing...then he just turned forward and started driving...i mean ordinarily i'm fine, i don't get irritated easily (not often lar)...if he said smth like oh paiseh or just smiled abit or basically acknowledged his mistake i would have told him aiya its ok lar and smiled back but wtf man thats just rude...so i gave him the middle finger as i got off the bus...but i don't think he saw me so after i got off i turned right and as i passed the front of the bus he was lookin at me and i flipped my finger at him again...pls lar...if he want to be a cheebye, i can be one too

got alot of police on the roads these few days...quite a few roadblocks too...goodness, like cockroaches...they're everywhere....saw quite a few of the new TP WRXes also...i wouldn't mean driving one of those sia...jus now on the way back i was driving along upper bukit timah bout 2 plus when i saw a roadblock on the other side of the road....drove on and there were a few cabs on the opposite side goin kinda fast so i flashed my lights twice to warn them and saw in the rear mirror that they slowed down...so theres my good deed of the day...i've been saved a number of times myself cos of pple flashing me so heck repay the favour....what can i say i'm a nice guy

Been noticing recently there quite a few pple that walk along expressways, especially at night.. Don't know if its a recent phenomenon but its only just that i've been seeing them...Not only is it most likely illegal, its most certainly suicidal as well, especially if dumb drivers dun see where they're going (not me of cos)..

Live Forever

its not that oasis are the best band in the world right now, but in my opinion they definitely WERE...and i'd give anything to go just to hear their earlier work.. To sing the chorus of don't look back in anger with 7,000 other pple (or however many are gonna be at the indoor stadium) is gonna be an absolutely surreal and for me, moving, experience. their recent work isn't fantastic, that much i admit freely. but they're still great live. I've spent many a late night in sec sch and JC just puttin on an oasis cd and singing along...its all about the memories man

heres a list of my fav oasis songs in more or less the order of greatness
1)Live Forever
2) Wonderwall
3)Don't Look back in anger
4)Supersonic
5)Slide away
6)Champagne Supernova
7)Cigarettes and Alcohol
8)Slide Away
9)Listen Up
10)Let there be Love
9)The Masterplan
11)Whatever

And here it is...the lyrics to my favouritest oasis song

'Live Forever'

Maybe I don't really want to know
How your garden growsI
just want to fly
Lately did you ever feel the pain
In the morning rain
As it soaks it to the bone

Maybe I just want to fly
I want to live I don't want to die
Maybe I just want to breath
Maybe I just don't believe
Maybe you're the same as meW
e see things they'll never see
You and I are gonna live forever

Maybe I don't really want to know
How your garden growsI just want to fly
Lately did you ever feel the painIn the morning rain
As it soaks it to the bone

Maybe I will never be
All the things that I want to be
But now is not the time to cry
Now's the time to find out why
I think you're the same as me
We see things they'll never seeY
ou and I are gonna live forever
We're gonna live forever
Gonna live forever
Live forever
Forever

http://www.oasisinet.com/site.php?site=single&atype=0&country=172&idx=27
have a little listen

OASIS!!! OASIS!!! OASIS!!!

oh my fucking goodness OASIS ARE COMING TO S'PORE!!!....i thought i'd never ever be able to see them.....i'm so excited i can't fucking breathe...OASIS to me is like..is like satay, is like bergkamp..is like...arrr u get my point i've been wanting to watch them live since sec2 ahhhhh does anyone wanna go??....but fuck i'll go myself if noone wants....
note to all terrorists out there....if ur planning to bomb indonesia again or anywhere in the world actually...pls wait till after 24th feb
if they cancel again i'm just gonna break down and cry

alcohol and alex to

i think i have this psychological barrier against alcohol now ever since 2 wks back at momo when i puked like noones business (thanks again peihui and elaine).....ever since...i dunno leh...the heart is gone sia....like last fri with the chivas...think i drink the equivalent of less than a glass....and last nite at dbl o...goodness...hardly drank anything at all....at the end of the nite i was so bluddy sober i cld take a driving test and pass it.....last nite wasn't helped by ty not drinking and so many pple that couldn't turn up suddenly...still got one whole unopened bottle of absolut there which i gotta go back and finish by next mth...
dbl o changed their playlist...last time used to play retro till bout 12 then they'll switch to r&b/retro/rock watever...this time they did retro all teh way till 2 plus and switched to dunno wat u call it lar i didn't like it...but thats probably cos i din have enuff alcohol in me....

oh Alex To was at dbl o yesterday..was at a corner table 2 tables away frm us and ty got his signature which was cool....but he left bout 1 plus 2 i think...the stupid DJ announced at 2 plus after he left that 'ALEX TO IS IN THE HOUSE!!! WE LOVE YOU!! TONG TONG TUO DIAO!!!".....//wtf...oh well watever

stayed at sean's place last nite...slept on his sofa...were talkin till bout 6 plus then i knocked out till 4 plus in the aftnoon...ahhhh what a nice lazy sunday nite....wat wonderful weather this evening too...isn't it simply delightful???....
sean is studying in Melbourne for anyone who doesn't know...and we were talkin about life in general and stupid Aussies also...and i was sayin that Perth is boring as hell and at 5 plus in the morning all u can go is the casino, Fast Eddys or an overpriced cafe which serves lousy food (Oriel's) and he said 'well at least theres 7-11 rite' and i said no there isn't...theres no 7-11 no starbucks no HMV nothing basically and he went 'U DON'T EVEN HAVE A 7-11?? I HAVE LIKE 4 IN MY BLOCK"///so yeah perthisaboringplace....hence my blog address....u can add hopeless too...i love singapore man...i love the fact that i can walk out at 5am and cross the road and eat Bak Kut Teh which is recommended by Makansutra, or i can walk abit further and eat Boon Tong Kee which i don't cos its overrated....or i can drive to wherever and eat whatever i can think of...its wonderful...and all u pple living here shouldn't take it for granted....try goin to perth...u'll cry

more random thoughts

i have something stuck in my throat...i think its the kai lan that i ate jus now....if i'm gonna die, i'd like to say some final words...naawwwww i'm not gonna die am i??? choy choy choy

i wonder how Fiona the fat bitch that doesn't like me is...her fren oso forgot her name...probably eating and gettin fatter...but that aside

Australians think they're really high and mighty no? but then again...we don't get racial riots in s'pore do we? on wednesday i was at Adam Road wif Rizvi eatin nasi lemak...and thou i'm sure he feels like killin me alot, and i do likewise....its cos we're idiots...not cos of the colour or our skin.

Oh all the best to everyone thats going for exchange soon...i have no idea why all of a sudden so many pple are goin next sem...and to the US too...but oh well...have fun...don't drink too much, don't do too much drugs...and pls rem to use protection...

Ministry of Sound is opening tmr...i do want to go to check it out...see what kind of music they play, cos i think i'll like the music...but then again its prob gonna be fuckin crowded...and i hate crowded clubs...thats why i like dbl o...its crowded yes...but never so crowded till u got bluddy no space at all...u only have to go to the dance floor...squeeze abit, say excuse me, and ta dah theres always an empty spot somewhere...
2 bottles coming up on sat but i don't really feel like drinking...and its absolut for goodness sake i hate absolut...but oh well...for old times sake eh?

oh and isn't Mustafa wonderful? to be able to shop for whatever in the world u want to at 3am in the morning has to one of the most surreal experiences ever...too bad they didn't sell the Sammi Cheng cd i wanted to get...the one wif all the techno songs...zi you, zi you, xian zai jui yao zi you...lalalala

dreaaammm

been havin weird dreams...actually i always have weird dreams....in fact i ddream almost every nite...and it keeps me frm resting properly....which is why i sleep so much....my reasoning aniwae

sat nite was weird..dreamt that i was on the PIE somewhere in a car but i wasn't driving...then malaysia starting attacking s'pore and we were dodging m'sian planes that were trying to hit us....then i woke up...or rather i woke up in the dream (so i dreamt that i dreamt) and found myself at my old home which i last stayed in pri 6...thennn....aliens started attacking earth wif their flying saucers and stuff and started vapourising everything but they din attack my building...but they did unleash some plague which turned everyone into zombies.
then (heres where it really gets freaky)...i dreamt that i did some crime, think i killed someone, and my mom was a witness...but i think my mom became a zombie too...anwiae i killed my mom (wtf rite) to silence her and dragged her body to the sink...i wanted to take a trash bag and dump the body inside but my aunt woke up....and wen tto the kitchen. i was in a panic...like shit shes gonna see that i've killed my mom!!....but when she got to the kitchen...all that was in the sink were dishes......buy this time i was really confused...i went out and my mom was sitting there. i asked her hey how come ur not dead and she said of cos why would i be....so thats when i knew that the aliens thing was a dream (but i was still sleeping)...and it went on i can't rem the rest till i actually woke up and realised the whole damn thing was a dream....so essentially it was a dream within a dream within a dream...wtf

last nite...dreamt i was back in army....and there was a stand by bed but my cupboard was a total mess and i couldn't be bothered to clean it up....went on for a long time but i can't rem already

i have weird dreams i know...i really dunno why...and don't even try and analyse the killin my mom part..thats jus freaky

on another note...i'm not entirely happy wif my results..but it coulda been worse i guess

more abt alcohol

my new found abstinence lasted..hmmm...jus abt a wk...it ended just now with the opening of a nice looking chivas bottle...i have to say it was damn cheap at $110 (original price 148 +20%discount plus bargain another 8 bucks)
think i have low alcohol tolerance now though...felt sick after half a glass...hardly drank any at all after that...mebbe its a sign...

next wk is 2 bottles of absolut at dbl o...hmmmmm

i'm in love with an inanimate object

jus got back from sean's place where i fell in love wif his sofa all over again...sean think when ur place is sold i'll hold a memorial for the sofa...in remembrance...
jon was supposed to go to discuss the bintan trip but the fucker was sleeping when i called him...i have a feelin the bintan trip is no more....ah well...no surprise...

sean well done lar never get the 151...wtf lar why in the world did u buy finlandia for??...yes i'm kao pehing about it...i kept my mouth shut jus now cos i was afraid u really were gonna stick the bottle up my ass (and i know u would)...farrrkkk man i'm sad

why are board games so expensive...was walkin ard toys r us jus now and they were sellin risk at 50 bucks...its kinda ex i guess...and no pt gettin unless i play with myself (and no its not meant to be a dirty comment)...also...why are they so many versions of monopoly...someone explain that to me....

aeonflux is a dumb show...granted charlize theron is hot but there were quite a few moments when i wanted to burst out laughing at the absurdity of it all...but thats just me, mebbe other pple like it

thinking of gettin a t-shirt and printing the words "DEATH PENALTY ROCKS!!" or something like that and wear it when i go back to Perth...but honestly its just a thot i don't have a deathwish.

lastly...damn all u pple who doubted me when i said i was gonna give up drinking....whether ornot i actually give it up isn't the point...but ur lack of faith in me cuts like a knife...justified as it may be....heh
i've decided...i'm not gonna give up drinking (ooooh big surprise there)...but from now on, i won't drink much. IF i go clubbing, i'll jus drink a teeny weeny little bit...so in short i've decided to always drink in moderation
I dont' think its THAT big a stretch rite

help

I am officially never ever gonna fuckin drink again.....oowwwwwwwwwwwwwWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW......i now weigh what i weighed when i came back frm Perth...so u can imagine how much fucking fluid i lost